Friday, February 19, 2010
Always i have been thinking, why was i born? why was my purpose in being born? what am i?...all this questions are always in my head, not knowing what the answer is leaving a life full of mysteries that even my friends dont know of..they still have not seen the real side of me..today is the first time in my life, blurting out the truth about the real me, what people see me is the opposite of the real me, why do i show it, its because of the world itself..i have always wondered why must this world be twisted as it is now than pure from b4, how much have the evolution take place...seeing human always doing their things, the same everyday it is as though humans are being control by someone, never seeing true happiness but instead seeing a fake smile, so the real me sort of a way to bring joy to the world, showing only happiness and hiding the sorrow and hatred within me, bearing all the pain, so that others are able to be happy...Still things isnt enough, through daily life and these years i have been living, i only notice of 1 thing..My existence, the true meaning of my existence, is that i dont belong here, everyday facing people, no one actually acknowledge my existence as it is, i have been treated like air, circulating around never able to find true salvation, although i cant prove that i am what i am, i still have this conscience inside of me saying that its better for me to just go away and leave this world as it is, rather than saving it and be like a nobody in the end, its true i want people to acknowledge me, not as a human but as me..but i doubt that will ever happen..right now my feeling has grown strong, as it tells me to just leave and never coming back, but my heart still says to keep on staying for some more time see how things develop out, and i am following my heart and seeing things even if my heart breaks in the end..im no longer the same me i use to be, and i dont know how long more i have left..Time is but an essence in which you live, never see back to the past but keep looking ahead, meeting people and living life to the fullest until the end of your days. This words are meant to say that fulfilled ur dreams and keep going forward without looking back at ur past even when u make a lot of mistakes, learn from it and move on, never hang onto it, as the memories may scar you even more if it is left hanging...
Light Of Life 8:29 PM
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